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“Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life”

Proverbs 13:12

I remember the first time I read this Scripture in Proverbs, as well as the many times that followed. I must say, my heart is touched every time I turn to it.  What a profound piece of Scripture!

I’m also confident we’ve all had seasons in life where we’ve longed deeply for something and the reality of it ever happening is delayed. Perhaps we never do see our longing or prayer answered.  As much effort as we put into trying to make the dream come true for us, we find ourselves empty.  What I mean by ‘empty’ is the longing has left us with an ache in our heart in the absence of a dream fulfilled.  We find ourselves agonizing over the loss of what could have been and should have been.  Perhaps it’s the loss of what we believed was meant to be, but just never materialized for us.

We find ourselves struggling to stay the course as we wait, trying to remain hopeful.  Then quickly hope turns into disappointment.  We may struggle in our heart and mine to determine the reason behind the delay. We find ourselves asking, ‘Where is God?’  Days turn into nights and we find we cannot concentrate on much else because the longing has consumed our every thought.  Still we push through as our hope diminishes.  This is when we may become so discouraged we find ourselves heartsick over the longing and waiting.

Can anyone relate?

There are things I’ve longed and waited for that to this day have not come to fruition.  I’ve had to learn how to surrender my will for His and accept the timing and seasons of God.  I’ve reasoned within as to why things happened the way they did and not the way I’d hoped for.

My confession is this; God has used the disappointments and the delayed answers to prayer to teach me more about Himself.  He has strengthened my faith, and showed me His will for my life.  This has caused me to take my eyes off of myself and to look more deeply into the ways of God.  Many times it has brought me to my knees in despair as I’ve ached for the longing to pass so I might feel good again.  Through the season of waiting God used this time to enhance my spiritual understanding of how He is the Lord of my life, and I am not.

I want to go back to ‘heartsick.’ Loss and disappointment, delayed answers to prayer and longing can cause our heart to literally feel sick from brokenness and disappointment.  This can bring on depression, doubt in God, and make us question if we are worthy of answered prayer!  Whether our longing is for a career, a marriage, a baby, a home or even a puppy!  That longing is real to us and it consumes our thoughts and takes up residence in our hearts as we wait with great expectation for it.  As much as we try to keep ourselves preoccupied, it’s still there.  The enemy taunts us with words that echo in our mind about how life will never be good without it.  The ache in our hearts stubbornly reminds us of what we don’t have, the very thing everyone else seems to have.  That dream that we are missing that would make our life complete.  Bottom line, the whole process can really do a number on us!

But then God shows up and sometimes it’s in the answer we’ve longed for, and other times it’s to gently move us toward something better.  We may not see the ‘better’ in it, but that is when we must stay strong, push through, and trust God.  What I’ve learned about God is that when He answers our longings or moves them into a new direction, we can be sure it will be in a majestic and miraculous way.

I share this as I too was becoming heartsick before my move to So Cal.  Nothing was working for me back home in the Bay Area.  My relationship with my younger son was falling apart after years of working hard to help, support and show my love for him and his daughter.  In his eyes it still ended up not being enough. In God’s eyes, perhaps I had done too much.  It was back in 2009 that I began to look into relocating and submitting job applications.  After a few years of doing this without anything happening, I grew weary and discouraged. I put this longing aside with a restless, disappointed heart.  It was 2014 when God showed up with the answer to this forgotten prayer.  It happened like nothing I envisioned.  It left me without a doubt that it was about God’s will and His timing, not mine. It happened in a way I could never have dreamed up!  He put all logistics into place and He had me moved within a five week time span, after five years of delay!

I share this with hope of encouraging those of you who have hearts desires that have not yet materialized. Those relentless hopes and dreams that captivated your heart, only to leave you heartsick because tomorrow has come, but the longing remains unfulfilled.

It’s my desire to encourage and strengthen you with this verse in Proverbs that was put there for such a time as this!  These words are written to remind us of the life that comes to us through a faith that perseveres when it’s difficult and we see no light at the end of the tunnel.  We must not forget God understands.  We must be mindful of how God is with us as we walk that pebbled road and wait for the light to illuminate our way again.  We must stay strong and move forward as we wait for the timing of God to break through our heartsick condition.  If it’s not the timing we envisioned or the way we wanted things to go, God see’s us and has our best interests at heart. He will still show up.  Many testify that He always shows up with something better!

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Thursday Night’s NightCap


So, I’ve decided to add a little zest to my blog by adding a Thursday Night’s “NightCap” to send you off into a deep slumber!

Tonight we have, What Tagline Speaks to You? 

Ever wonder who makes up these cute, funny and inspiring “taglines”? I do. I often wonder where they were when they thought it, said it or prayed it. I wonder if they were happy, sad, angry, fed up or just filled with deep emotion for someone or something. I am confident many of these will be familiar to you, and some you may have even quoted for one reason or another. Maybe some have been a friendly reminder of how life goes on.  My wish for you tonight is that you will find one or two that will leave you encouraged and thinking, what if…I was encouraged, happy, relieved, feeling stronger and possibly feeling freed from something. What if a word helped get me through the day or the night.  What if someone left me a word that was magical, inspiring and life changing…What if this NightCap of words resonated truth and hope within me and something changed.


A day without laughter is a day wasted

Accept what you can’t change. Change what you can’t accept.

Bloom where you’re planted

Counting other people’s sins does not make you a saint

Do small things with great love.

Do something each day to bring you a little closer to your dreams.

Don’t put the key to your happiness in someone else’s pocket.

Dreams don’t work unless you do.

Knowledge speaks but wisdom listens.

Live in the moment. Live what you love. Make it happen. Make mistakes.

Please and thank you are still magic words.

Rejection is not fatal. Seize the moment.

Sometimes the wrong choices bring us to the right places

There are far better things ahead than any we leave behind.

Some of my favorite Proverbs. In a sense they’ve become my “taglines” as they bring comfort, encouragement, wisdom and inspiration to my day and night:

Lazy hands make a man poor, but diligent hands bring wealth.

The wise in heart accept commands, but a chattering fool comes to ruin

The man of integrity walks securely, but he who takes crooked paths will be found out.

Hatred stirs up dissension, but love covers over all wrongs.

A gossip betrays a confidence, but a trustworthy man keeps a secret.

Reckless words pierce like a sword but the tongue of the wise brings healing.

A longing fulfilled is sweet to the soul

He who walk with wise grows wise.

A gentle answer turns away wrath.

A happy heart makes the face cheerful, but heartache crushes the spirit.

A cheerful look brings joy to the heart, and good news gives health to the bones.

A friend loves at all times.

An honest answer is like a kiss on the lips.

Iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another.